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Wednesday, July 9th, 2003

Subject:fun stuff.
Time:2:55 pm.
Mood: content.
Gank!Collapse )
Comments: 5 sleeping beauties - close your eyes.

Tuesday, July 8th, 2003

Time:3:01 pm.
Mood: complacent.
starting over.

new screen name: rawdementia

I'm through with the games and the bullshit and the drama. Lets stop it and start again. Stop running away.

I'm not losing any friends over this, I'm not losing this. I'm not losing.

Game Over.
Comments: 1 sleeping beauty - close your eyes.

Time:1:51 pm.
Well. I'll be using this journal temporarily. I'll have my other back within a few days.

I'm tired of this drama, just give up.

I think tomorrow will be a nice break from this though. Yes, a nice break.
Comments: close your eyes.

Thursday, June 19th, 2003

Subject:I found a way..
Time:9:37 pm.
Mood: creative.
Sometimes you just lose all sense of sanity.
Sometimes you just forget.
Sometimes you just don't understand.

Magic Number20
JobMental Patient
PersonalitySunshine And Blue Skies
TemperamentIf I Lose It - Run
SexualWhatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To WinThe Respect Of My Colleagues
Me - In A WordBeautiful
Brought to you by MemeJack

Comments: close your eyes.

Tuesday, May 20th, 2003

Subject:Mirror mirror..
Time:9:57 pm.
Mood: artistic.
Walls closing in, Doors locking shut
I'm caving in, I'm giving up
In the mirror, I see a face
Scorned and broken
Scarred with disgrace

On the other side, the water calms
The ocean settles, the storm dissolves
The mirror lies, no truth is told
The face is filled with smiles
But my heart is cold
Comments: 1 sleeping beauty - close your eyes.

Thursday, April 3rd, 2003

Time:9:55 pm.
Mood: confused.
so many things in my mind
so many things to feel and to be
and so many things holding me back
so many dreams that will remain just that
so many secrets I'm keeping from myself
why do I close my eyes
why do you close your eyes
open your fucking eyes
don't you see me
don't you see me there
don't you see the lies
Comments: close your eyes.

Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003

Subject:its not raining anymore
Time:11:14 pm.
I don't know whats happening
tell me this isnt happening
I want to wake up
this is a dream
its a fucking dream
wake me up from this dream
do yourself a favor and forget this ever happened
just forget I ever happened
just forget about me
Comments: close your eyes.

Friday, March 21st, 2003

Time:7:25 pm.
Mood: drained.
I try and look at the big picture but all I can see is the frame.

I need answers like air and I'm suffocating.
Comments: close your eyes.

Thursday, March 20th, 2003

Subject:then hurt me
Time:12:13 am.
Mood: awake.
Let's call this the quiet city:
Where screams are felt as a wave of stoplights
Drive through the the streets as gunshots punctuate the night
The sides we take divide us from our faith
And the mourning dove gets caught in the telephone wire

Asleep you set the fire in your own house
And the night was a knife that cut
And I'm paralyzed

Cross out the eyes
Blur all the lines
Tearing this canvas from the wall
We crossed out the eyes
Put lines through these cries
We pulled all the leaves from the trees that fall

A silent dance that we did into this hospital bed
Hear voices from another room
"It happens all the time"
But July in the sand
Then the leaves that fall
And counting down our days to live....
Drain the blood from this valentine.

"We can rise on the wings of the dove
See blue skies getting caught in the trail of all this smoke
We can rise like candles in the dark your always"
and an envelope marked with your new address

It was the first time face to face
I'm crossing the line
Talking to the other side of death
Hearing the words that choke memories into flatlines
I'm calling your name hoping for something to wash these dreams of you away

Our fence was blown down in a winter storm and this field
stretched out of this world into the sound of a trace of blood in a love song
What can we do to put a stop to the coming white days?
I'm hoping the snow will push these dreams of you away

Comments: close your eyes.

Wednesday, March 19th, 2003

Subject:It happens all the time..
Time:10:43 pm.
Mood: anxious.
Whats it like to know just what you want and how to get it?
Whats it like to breathe air for the very first time?
Whats it like to hope tomorrows better then today?
Whats it like to know the answers to questions?
Whats it like to accomplish the impossible?
Whats it like to believe in fairy tales?
Whats it like to dream in technicolor?
Whats it like to reach the stars?
Whats it like to truly love?
Comments: 1 sleeping beauty - close your eyes.

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